Where I am at Today...

I decided to write this blog post last night at 1 am. I couldn’t sleep so here I am…The past 6 months have been so many things. There's been headaches, celebrations, long days, surgery, stressful weeks, so many tests and so much more. I’m not here to complain or to have a pity party. I’m here to thank the Lord for everything he’s done for me. This week I realized that God really does work everything out for us. It's impossible to see at the moment but I believe it 100%.

A few examples of ways he’s worked in my life for the best include... Our wedding date. When we first got engaged we toggled the idea of waiting until this December or January instead of July 2019 to tie the knot. Well, I am SO thankful July ended up being our date. I would have still been recovering from my surgery and would have been far worse than I was in July.

Another thing was our honeymoon. I was always the girl who said “I will NEVER wait to go on a honeymoon. I'm going the next morning no matter what.” Well, that didn’t work out for Brandon and I. I was bummed about it at first for a while. I mean who wants to wait on their honeymoon?! It just wasn’t in the cards for us at the time. 3 days into our marriage, we were on our way to the ER in the middle of the night. I praised God that we weren’t in Mexico or somewhere far away for a hospital run. We were surrounded by family and friends who loved us and helped us get through a very hard first week of marriage. We ended up staying 4 days in the hospital. Now we are going on our honeymoon in a few months and we will be able to celebrate marriage, getting surgery behind us, and me graduating in December all at once! He really had his hand on us there.

Another way God was working through me and my decisions without me realizing until now are my class schedules. Luckily, all my classes this semester were classes I could work from home for and catch up on what I missed. I was out of school, laying flat in my bed all day for 4 weeks. Whew, I never thought id ever say it, but I was DYING to go back to class. My professors were super understanding and worked with me more than I ever imagined. I am able to graduate in a few weeks even though I missed so much school! If I hadn’t had the classes I did this semester, I probably would have had to take a semester off.

Lastly, my surgery date. My surgery date changed 3 times. Ahh, it was stressful! We were frustrated and annoyed but the date we landed on ended up being the best in the end. God knew what he was doing. 5 long hard days in the hospital and I was finally released to go home. We were so overwhelmed with love and support at the hospital and when we got home. After 4 weeks of nothing, I was able to start doing a little bit. Thank you to everyone who sent gifts, brought food, or came and sat with me in bed. SO THANKFUL for all of your love and support.

All this to say.... wow we all live our lives every day. We do our own thing oftentimes, not even noticing what others are doing. I can tell you that we're all going through something. We are all struggling with something right now whether that's big or small, it's there. Whether you know it or not, God is using his people, his power, to guide you through your decisions and your life every minute of every day. He KNOWS whats best for us. He doesn’t tell us what is to come from the hard times, because it's beautiful to look back and see how much God was right in front of us. I am thankful for a life full of God's hands on me. I don’t say it enough, but I am oh so thankful. I don’t mean to sound cheesy, I am just realizing how much bigger God is than us, so why worry about the “little” things? I am still struggling but I am so blessed. Peace out… until next time!